I LOVE my Mama! I really truly do. She brightens my spirits, understands me when I'm being weird, and talks to me even when I'm bugging everyone else. She gets me. Mother's day was a bit hard this year. After the miscarriage I just felt like the day was supposed to be more special. Owen's ex had the kids all day in California so I couldn't see them for any time that day either. I know she loves them too and it's not a bad thing for them to be with her on Mother's Day. They did decide to make a point of making sure the kids are not with us on Mother's Day though so that is kind of frustrating. I'm not insecure about my role in their lives or them knowing it so I didn't make a fuss about it. We have taught them that I love them like my own even though I am not their biological mother. I know some people have confusion about that but I have made it clear to the children we never act like I brought them into this world, but we make a big point that they understand it is ok for me to be a part of the world they live in and that I love them no differently. I think it is very important for a child to feel loved by those who care for them. I have been in their lives for a long time now and been a part of so many wonderful and equally challenging experiences with these children. They have expanded my heart to being so much larger than I thought it ever could be and have taught me so much about myself and my life. Parenting and being a part of raising them has fundamentally changed the course of my life. I will always be a mother to them and love them for eternity as one.
It is not how I was raised. I had one mother. Often times I think about that and worry that the kids might feel damaged or different in a blended family, but then I re-think it and realize, if they know they are loved and we always make sure their best interests are at the forefront of the decisions, then I think they are blessed to have so many who truly love and care for them. They will grow from each one of us as parents. I love my mother and my father in different ways but equally as deep. I believe our children can do the same for each side of parents they have. Love has no limits. The heart is a great thing. I am so grateful to have these children in my life and for what that has made me.
My friend Bridgette is pregnant right now and was able to announce it to her family that day. I'm super excited for her and Ben. I love them dearly and am so excited for this new chapter in their lives! It will be quite the adventure :-)
Owen has never ever missed a beat or let me down with Mother's Day. He was so sweet this year! He bought me a lily
A few days later it blossomed so beautifully!!
And he bought me my very first piece of expensive and nice jewelry. This necklace is made of silver and diamonds and holds and inside story between the two of us. I love this man with all my heart. Thank you for always making me feel special.
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